So, about a year-ish ago, I was at an all time low. My anxiety had hit an all time high, which was something I had not experienced in over two years. My dad had just survived heart surgery and I had just stepped into pursuing The Sweet Hive. Things seemed to be going great, so why was I filled with anxiety? I remember waking up one morning and just falling into my husband’s arms crying and not knowing why. I couldn’t pin point why my heart and mind were so overwhelmed and honestly, that made things worse. Why was I so downcast?
I went to the doctor and I also went on a leave from my job. I was embarrassed, ashamed and completely insecure. Being honest and trying to explain to people what was going on, when I didn’t even understand myself, was one of the hardest things.
Most people were supportive, a few weren’t. I had no idea what was going on and what was happening that I think I formed a level of depression.
That was a really tough time.
But here I am almost a year later, and it seems so long ago. It was in that leave that I had time with God. All I did pray for direction and He not only spoke to me, but he directed me. That very month I opened my online store and I left my full time position at the Dallas Museum of Art.
Thinking back, that was really brave, crazy and completely not who I am. It was so shocking that my own mother thought I was fired. LOL I mean, I get it - who leaves their job with no plan B?
As my life has changed from one season to the next, I’ve come to a point where I’m starting to feel strong in my journey. To be quite honest, I’m pretty darn proud of myself. I’ve learned to rest instead of quit. I’ve battled through some tough times and I’m better because of it, not bitter.
And I see so many rock stars out there doing their best! I see single moms caring for their kids and learning to care for themselves too. I see people in their latter years still dreaming, working hard because age ain’t nuthin’ but a number. I see every day women with full time jobs, making time for their side hustle to create a business and make money doing what they love. None of that is easy, yet, none of us give ourselves a pat on the back. Why?
We just don’t give ourselves enough credit.
I don’t. You don’t. None of us do.
As I was creating the Warrior Collection, I knew there were so many of you that were like me, in this grind of getting back up when life takes you down. It may look different for each of us, but I’m seeing that we all have struggles. (Yes, even those who are "living their best life".) Whether you’ve had a tough day, week, season or year, YOU continue to rise. That makes YOU a warrior. (And if you didn’t know, well now ya know.) When you stop and look back at where you were and look at where you are now – sister, you have made progress! You may not be where you want to be, but you are not where you used to be. Stop living in a woe is me attitude and start believing in a wow, that’s me attitude!
I constantly battle with being full of confidence and full of insecurity and I’m sure that may resonate with you. But you must make the effort to remind yourself when those mind monsters lurk that YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU ARE MADE FOR THIS, and YOU WILL SURVIVE!
Those struggles didn’t break me, and the good news is, they won’t break you either. Worry and fear – they are just bullies and liars.
Just a year ago I was on a leave from work dealing with anxiety and unfortunately the trouble didn't end there. Yet, here I am and I'm still standing.
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