I've been living the first few weeks of 2018 in full faith. If you haven't read my previous posts, I'll go ahead and fill ya in. At the end of 2017, things changed drastically for me. God steered me into the unknown, yet again, and I took a leap of faith to abide in His direction for me. I can't tell you how or when I knew, it was more of this magnetic force pulling me out of something and pulling me towards something new. I've been working on my side business for the past five years (blog, new blog and now screening printing). I did the Texas two step, going back two steps instead of forward most times, but nonetheless, I found my calling. Balancing a full time job, motherhood, marriage, friendships, health and fitness (or lack there of) is really hard. I've tried balancing it all, (key word tried) but at some point something had to give. Jesus thought my steady, comfortable 9-5 job had to go. I'm sure it was to lead me to this very place where I'm able to immerse myself fully to this passion God created me to live out. My plan was to find a part time job that would allow me time to focus on my business and still manage to have a fixed amount of income every month. Although my business is up and running, a profit is not visible until about after a year, sometimes even longer. So right now, any monies that come in are recycled to purchase more supplies, equipment, etc. This means I'm working and not getting paid or seeing any profit just yet. After several weeks of applying to various jobs, I can report that the part time job door has not opened.
Surprisingly, the panic button has not been pushed.
Some people would look at me and think I'm crazy and I wouldn't blame ya. If I've learned anything in my Christian walk, I've learned God doesn't do the whole cookie cutter thing. He calls us to trust without borders, to really believe what his Word says and to apply it all in our heart even when it seems like no one wants to hire you.
I've been reading a book by Mark Batterson called Chase the Lion. Mark describes faith as climbing out on a limb, cutting if off, and watching the tree fall down. Faith is the willingness to look foolish. Faith is taking the first step before God reveals the second step. Like I mentioned earlier, I'm living this first month of 2018 in full faith. I certainly look foolish. I climbed out on the limb, cut it off and I have no idea how this tree is going to keep itself upright. It's scary. It's uncertain. As I kept reading, Mark referenced several stories in the bible where God called people and they followed. Remember Noah and the ark? Not many believed in him. He looked foolish to many. And then there's Peter who was asked to get out of the boat and walk on water. How terrifying!
I would be lying if I said doubt doesn't creep it's ugly self in my thoughts. It most certainly does. But it's words on pages by a book written by Mark Batterson, a song, sermon or support from a friend or family member which allows me to keep trusting. I'm faithing it until I make.
If you want to experience the supernatural, you have to attempt something that is beyond your natural ability. If you want to experience God's miraculous provision, you have to attempt something that is beyond your resources. It might not add up, but God can make it multiply just as it did in a field of dreams filled with five thousand hungry souls two thousand years ago. - Mark Batterson, Chase the Lion
I know God will present himself and grant me a job at the right time at the right place. In the meantime, He is taking care of my finances and allowing bills to be paid and going so far as to allow enough for extras. I can't explain how, perhaps it goes back five years ago when we decided to trust God with our finances. Who knows? All I know is God promises to supply all my needs. Believing He will and seeing it come to be when it just doesn't make sense is proof enough for me to share with you.
One of the great things about not having a full time job is the extra time I get to enjoy with my daughter. Just the other day after picking her up from school, I decided to stop by a fast-food chain and grab her some food as a treat for good grades. The fast food restaurant is right off the freeway, just down the street from my house. As we were about to turn into the drive thru, I noticed an older lady who looked homeless, carrying bags ever so slowly to the other corner. I went ahead and pulled into the drive thru, quickly forgetting about her just like every car before me. I made my order, grabbed my daughter's food and was going to head home. As I pulled up to the stop sign, there she was again, struggling with her bags, crossing the street to get to the bus stop. I felt God steer me to help her. The trouble with that is I didn't want to. All I wanted to do was get home and finish my laundry.
As I drove down to the end of the street, up to our garage, I could feel the impression in my heart to go help her. I ignored it, opened up my garage and pulled my car in. And then it happened - I froze. I couldn't turn off the car. I couldn't get out. I started reversing out of the garage and my daughter asked me what I was doing. I told her we were going to go see if that lady needed help.
I pulled up next to the lady, asked her if she needed help and with a smile on her face, she said yes. I offered to give her a ride and she accepted. I grabbed her belongings, put them in the car and told her to go ahead and hop on in. As soon as she got in my car, she said, "God is good."
She was homeless, struggling - yet she could still praise God because He is so good. I needed that moment more than she did. Stella, who now became my friend in the short 20 minute ride became an angel for me. Stella reminded me that no matter what, God takes care of you. It doesn't always happen the way we think, but He comes through. It gave me additional confidence that God takes care of all of us.
And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. Now all glory to God our Father forever and ever! Amen. Philippians 4:19-20
God will supply all our needs. He's doing it for me and I know he'll do it for you. Rest on that promise. So go after that dream! I know it's scary and it isn't easy, but nothing that comes easy is worth having. Go after the dream that is set to fail without God's divine intervention.