I’m a huge fan of Chip and Joanna Gaines. I love their simplicity, their work and craft and above all I love how they have stayed true to their beliefs. In October 2017, the world was stunned when they ended their hit TV show, Fixer Upper. It didn’t make sense.
Their reasoning? They wanted to take a step back.
As I read her caption, I felt convicted.
I’ve struggled with many feelings since I started my business that made me feel like a “not so great” mom. I felt selfish for chasing a dream and focusing so much time on it while I had a little one. I felt bad for leaving her on weekends to work an event and rely on grandparents to fill in. I then felt bad for bringing her with me and having her work with me while other kids got to play. I’ve slowly accepted that I’m not a bad mom, but I must admit, I still struggle. Some days I feel like I’m doing great, while other days I scroll through Instagram and I see all the fun some moms are having with their kids at various vacations or parks and I start to question myself as a mom. Since summer started, I’ve been booked every weekend (even some weekdays), which has been a blessing of God’s provision, but on the flip side, it’s time away from my daughter.
As I planned the rest of my summer with various events, I kept finding that I was struggling with scheduling a weekend off. The business side of me said I was losing out on a day to make sales while my soul was guiding me to rest. When I would think of rest, I pictured myself on the couch binge watching Netflix and that’s not what I wanted to do. I didn’t want to be lazy, I wanted to work.
But as I learned more about what Jesus’ true definition of rest meant, I realized that if the only definition of rest I knew is the absence of work, then I’ve missed the fullness of His gift.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls” (Matthew 11:28-29).
The rest Jesus speaks of in Matthew 11:28-29 is not a physical rest, but a rest that is all-consuming. A rest we feel in our minds, bodies and spirits. It is a necessity - an act of worship, not a sign of laziness.
Jesus took time to rest spiritually, mentally and physically. If we look at the bible, we can see the examples and learn from him.
- Jesus modeled spiritual rest by making time to be alone with God. It was a priority!
- Jesus also modeled physical rest. He fell asleep in a boat with the disciples during a raging storm (Mark 4:35-41). Even through the chaos, Jesus took a nap. He knew when His body needed physical rest and was unapologetic about taking it.
- Jesus modeled mental rest. He was unafraid to pull away from the crowds, even when they desperately wanted Him.
Jesus’ examples changed the way I looked at rest.
As the Instagram post settled in my spirit, I knew I needed to take a step back, rest a little, enjoy some time with my family and quiet my soul. So, I’m taking a step back from a full schedule. Come August, I’m taking a break for myself, for my marriage and for my family. I’ll still be working, blogging, but will take a break from a full calendar of outdoor events. My confirmation from God has been very strong, so I know it’s the right time.
Ecclesiastes 3 tells us there is a time for everything and I believe God is preparing a time to rest before my next busy season hits. There is a side of me that feels like I’m missing out on opportunities to generate income, but I trust that God will make a way as he always has and guide us through.
“Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”